Gay In America
Just so you all understand, this is still MY president and why I believe so fully in equality and in America:
Labels: Barack Obama, Gay and lesbian
Travel. It is my passion. I am driven to see the world and to learn from it. I crave experience and adventure. Yet, my travel is not just about checking off the locations and getting to see it all. Travel changes me. I go to places to learn, to experience, to understand and see differently. And, now I want to make it more important by documenting and sharing it. It is a record of my thoughts along the way. I invite you to share the journey with me.
Just so you all understand, this is still MY president and why I believe so fully in equality and in America:
Labels: Barack Obama, Gay and lesbian
The most complaints we hear, the more free hours we spend on paperwork during this healthcare crisis, the one issue that seems to bring up so much conflict and time is the issue of prescription refills
This blog entry is in response to the overwhelming and increasing feeling that the health care crisis is the physicians' fault and that we should be perfect every minute. I guess I must admit that it is exhausting fighting for excellent health care for my patients.
Labels: family practice and primary care medicine, Gay health care, gay mens health
What is the fuss? This is one of the many reasons we voted for the Obama's in the rirst pace. Let her alone. Let her be comfortble on vacation....
Labels: Atlantis Cruises, Seattle Gay Pride, stockholm
I am having laptop problems, but wanted to let my family and friends know I am fine...just spent the last twelve hours in St. Petersburg, and yesterday in Tallin, Estonia. I have lots of photos and so much to say, but at 75 cents/minute on these cruise ships I do not want to waste too much money.
Photos will be coming. I just have not had time to edit them. But, I have to write. I am full of such horror and joy and emotion after my day in Berlin, standing at the Reichstag, the Kristalnacht memorial, the only synagogue in Berlin and numerous other buildings representing today and yesterday's Germany. I saw the built in shelves that would host the lost 25,000 books and manuscripts; My heart is full.
Labels: Berlin, Gay Atlantis Cruise, Genocide, Homosexuality, Rob Killian, The Holocaust
I did not take my camera today....just wanted to wander the city and not be a tourist. Boy, Sweden and Copenhagen are expensive at the moment...thank God, we live in the U.S. right now unless we have to buy European goods.
Labels: Gay, gay mormons, Malmo, Sweden
Just to remind my readers. There are laws governing the prescribing of narcotic and/or addictive drugs. When I say no to such a requests I can give you all of the reasons, but have rarely been asked.
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Email....while convenient and modern and easy, can often lead to conflict between a patient and a physician. See below for the numerous email rules printed here...
Labels: Gay Men's Health, Rob Killian
Hooray for Michael's Mother for asking Jennifer to sing this song.....One knows a star that one can't explain when they see one:
Labels: Jennifer Hudson, Michael Jackson Memorial, Rob Killian
I have thought about breaking my silence a million times. But, I went to Vietnam and other places in Asia in April and I still find that words do not describe this experience...about visiting a war zone, a people I grew up with as 'enemies' and then visiting them in my adulthood and finding a beautiful paradise where they profess forgiveness....
Labels: China Beach, Dana Delaney, Gay Travel, Marq Helgenberger, Vietnam War
I have just finished reading the speech President Obama gave in Cairo, Egypt today. I have so much to say, but I will add to this later, but most of all I am so proud of him and to have supported his presidency and I am so hopeful for a more peaceful world.
This anniversary is very meaningful for me both because I got to protest at the Chinese Embassy twenty years ago in Washington, DC and because I have subsequently honored these protestors myself at Tiananmen Square in Beijing. The Stranger, this week has some great writing and photos so that we never forget
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I don't know why today I had to tell my family I love them....I am on my way to Hong Kong for a trip that will take me to places I still have never been: Vietnam, parts of Thailand, and Singapore....and as I wrote one of my brothers today.....I feel so blessed to travel and see the world and to let life teach me that I just want that to be my legacy..that rather than growing more cyncical by the day I traveled and learned and heard others' stories and cried with them and felt more compassion for the other as I grew older. I also know I have not been the perfect father or friend at times along the way, and for this I apologize.
Labels: Miles Killian, Rob Killian, Taylor Killian
Labels: gay mormons, Love Actually, missionary reunions
I am sorry to have to put these new rules into place. But, the work and the demand and the assumption that one gets to repeatedly and 'urgently' interrupt my day with email prompts these new rules.
Labels: Email Rules and Etiquette, Rob Killian
Here is our HIV provider letter to the Governor and the Washington State Legislature:
Labels: Washington State AIDS Activism
SO...I am dividing my time to our new Capitol Hill Medical blog and answering questions asked of the doctors.... and am enjoying a lot.... you can catch us at: http://blog.capitolhillmedical.com
Labels: Capitol Hill Medical, Gay Men's Health
Everywhere one turns these days there is crisis, financial troubles, friends and neighbors having lost their jobs or living under the threat of job loss. As an HIV doctor working daily with groups at the greatest risk of contracting or living with this chronic deadly illness these financial woes seem especially frightening.
So...enough of the personal stuff.
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Milk
Labels: Gus Van Sant, MILK, Sean Penn
I had planned on waiting till my youngest son had returned from his mission before making this formal. But, he has made it clear his choices and his feelings. I can no longer wait for this to happen. I have formally and hereby, publicly, share my resignation letter from the Mormon Church:
December 1, 2008
Labels: gay mormons, Mormons and Gay Marriage
So...just so anyone who reads this understands that my emotions about my people are still raw......
Labels: gay mormons, Mormons and Gay Marriage
Labels: Gay Marriage, gay mormons
This is what I would say if I were less angry and less hurt and less passionate and as smart as this man. Please share at will and watch this in it's entirety if you have ever once felt you cared about me.....and those I care about....
So...I shed tears of pain this week and tears of joy. I have spent 16 years worrying that my sons will get it: THAT I LOVE THEM. I have spent 16 years of my life waiting for a time when we can get past religion and judgement and the self-loathing combined with the worry that my sons may hate me for being who I am. Sixteen years post 'coming out' as a gay man and as a 'gay Mormon' and 'gay father' and to have my joy this week--with the election of Barack Obama as President of these United States--tempered by the worry that once again the Mormon Church and their beliefs will somehow wreck my relationship with my boys, my sons--whom I love more than life itself--it is almost too much to take.
Labels: Barack Obama, gay mormons, Mormons and Gay Marriage
I have to admit that this post is a work in progress. I have emailed much of my thoughts to my family, many of whom are Mormon, about the devastating and evil work that Mormons and other religious people have done this week by writing into Constitutions discrimination against gay people.
Labels: gay mormons, Healing the World, Mormons and Gay Marriage


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You can see all of this on the Seattle page at Meefers.com
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I applaud Affirmation, the national organization for gay and lesbian Mormons for the statement they released today:
Labels: Affirmation, gay mormons
A letter to my patients:
For many of you who know me, this post won't be a surprise. But, I feel a need to put down my thoughts as I acknowledge more than a decade writing, speaking and thinking about the failed war on drugs, the plight of those who use marijuana as medicine, and how damaging the mistreatment of addiction is on the communities I serve and the wider damage this 'war' has on society in general.
Labels: Drug Rehab, Medical Marijuana, The Drug Czar, The War on Drugs
Beware of Reparative Therapy
Labels: gay mormons, LDS Social Services, Reparative Therapy
After finding a speech I gave on Gay Mormons at a Sunstone event ten years ago, an Associated Press reporter phoned me alst weekend and wanted a few quotes about an announcement that the Mormon Church had agreed to meet with representatives of Affirmation, the gay Mormon group. The interview was lengthy and the reporter was prepared and asked very good questions. But, like many other times I have been interviewed for stories, only one partial line and one other quote made it into the story. There is much more to this story.... But, first, here is the article:
Dr. Rob Killian poses in his office in Seattle on Sunday, April 6, 2008. After decades of silence, Mormon church officials have agreed to meet with a gay Mormon support group. Killian called a meeting between Affirmation and the church a "small improvement" and said he thinks the church may be acting for public relations reasons and fears it will perpetuate a false belief that the church will change. (Source:AP/Kevin P. Casey)Labels: Affirmation, Gamofites, gay mormons, LDS Social Services, Reparative Therapy
Hi:
Hello from Seoul...three flights down and the last one to finally get back to Seattle leaves in a hour or so....I am ready for my bed and, I believe, a shave(!!!!!)...
Just off a final rugged outdoor experience in the Royal Chitwan National Park at a wildlife refuge...no electricity, no phone access..and of course no internet access...but a life time of memories... WOW!!!
Just finished the fourth day of trekking...hit our highest point today in the Annapurna range at 11,000 feet. I have so much to share, but this is a dial up connection and I want to share my pictures as well. The Altitude is fine..no sign of altitude sickness.
I had a layover for two day here in Bangkok, and am now just waiting for a car to take me back to the airport and on to Kathmandu this morning...It is hot, humid and a major city here in Bangkok...the people are very friendly. I used my time to get a new tux made and five dress shirts... There is a thrill seeing someone take a clothing idea and quickly turn it in to reality. So, Tim, watch out I also now have a tux that fits and looks marvelous...:)
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I recently added two paintings by a local Seattle artist, Roderick Rojo, to my collection in honor of the remodel in my life and in my condo. I wanted to show them off here and to highlight some of my other art....the photos are not the best and as I can I will update them...but you will all be invited to the house warming when I unwrap the remodeled condo and start having dinner and cocktail parties again....
















Labels: Cassandra Blackmore, Evan Ferwerda, Matthew Denison, Roderick Rojo, Steve Jensen, Warren Knapp
Glamour, black tie and lots of alcohol always seem to bring the chic to Seattl each year as we gather to raise money for the Human Rights Campaign...and this year was no exception....Thank you to my friends and family who filled the table I sponsored and donated both their time and talents to make this years' dinner a great success....



Labels: gay doctors, HRC Gala Dinner, Pacapride, Seattle Gay Pride, T.R. Knight
How is that for a long title? I just got back from a great birthday weekend in Atlanta, courtesy of my friend John (Whom I met in Mykonos in July)....I got to meet many of John's friends at my birthday party on Friday night with The Crimson Party"...We all had to wear something red and the house was full of red and a signature red cocktail was served....What a great group of men and women who made me feel very welcome and who obviously love John.




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It has been a life long dream to get to Turkey and to see Istanbul. This dream was made stronger after reading the incredible book, "My Name is Red" by Turkish author Orhan Pamuk...which was set in sixteenth century Istanbul. The thought that our cruise would be diverted and not dock in Istanbul was a real fear only allayed by our greeting and welcome the day before in Kusadasi.....



Labels: gay cruise, Istanbul Turkey, Orhan Pamuk
For those who don't know me well, I am a fan of art.....of all kinds, but especially of paintings and sculpture. One of the joys of traveling for me is the discovery of new art or an artist I have never heard of. My earliest memory of this discovery in my adulthood was the day I spent in a Philadelphia museum learning of and enjoying Brancusi's work..... My day in Croatia was such a moment. I had chosen to get away from the 'ruins' and to discover art and the most beloved artist in Split, Croatia is their native son, Ivan Mestrovic. He is mostly a sculptor, but also drew. His medium was either Walnut, bronze, marble or plaster...








Labels: gay cruise, Ivan Mestrovic, Split Croatia
So, the biggest story as we enter Turkey is that Kudasai, the port is welcoming a gay cruise--in a predominantly Muslim country. There are rainbow flags in the shops along the port and businesses and people are very welcoming.



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For those checking in.....I have very limited and expensive Internet connection on the boat...But, "Gay Cruising" is definitely a great way to vacation.....I have so many things to say, talk about....lots on my mind about this year of intensive travel.
So...hello again from Athens and Greece. Twice in one year is making my brain spin a bit. But, I live with the universe giving me gifts and I don't question all of the reasons yet...I now know why I was supposed to be in Mykonos last month....but here I am back in Greece, preparing for my first ever "Gay Cruise".



And, here, in Greece is once again visual acknolewgement that one of their great leaders, Hadrian, had young Male companion--whom he loved. This is one version of his male lover who died way too soon and became a 'demi-god' in Greece by decree of Hadrian. There it is out there in the open and honest. His likeness is the best preservered and well cared for. Love has very few boundaries. What a great way to end up the display.Labels: Delfi, Gay Atlantis Cruise, greece, Hadrian's Boy Lover, Temple of Apollo








Labels: Killian Family Reunion, Miles Killian, Puerto Vallarta